Birthday Spree

Wohoho... celebrate 2 bday in a month... HAHA...



1st is wee kiat birthday, BBQ near his house...Every1 all botak.. only i got hair...

not bad the BBQ, 1st time eat lots of thing... quite full...haha...




haiz...left mi alone outside sia... go outside oso no ppl wan to pei mi..tsk tsk... listen to their topic is about NS..





nw more worry abt NS sia.. Alan somemore injury bcoz of NS.. wah piang.. dunno how i going to live in NS...


















2nd is Goh Bday, Early Celebration bcoz his bday fall on weekday when every1 is in the camp...

i was like long time no see them liao...lost update of them liao... Goh is like next yr march ORD, then daniel sign on to NAVEl, edwin Commando.. dunno how Sng, Samson, Sifen nw? long time nvr see them liao...

Go Thai Disco and drink.. same place since 2 yr ago daniel jio mi go there drink.. LOL.. drink quite alot.. got a bit of drunk.. 2molo still got work.. sleep only for 5 hours then have to work... damn tired...

Bad Day!!!

wah!!! i almost blow up today... today got 1 person so daring to fly my airplane sia... in my 20 yrs of life , this is the 1st time....if i am still in sec sch, i will confirm 100% 100% 100% blew my temper!!!!!! ahhhhh!!!

Like an idiot walking J8 alone for like from 5plus to 9 plus?? OMG!!! tat was like 4 hrs???

Lucky got alan come pei mi.. if not i going to blew the whole J8 up... LOL....

we chat alot sia... from ns stuff to study.. look like i am not mentally prepare for my ns and study... from the chat, i was quite lost.. alan invited mi to go oversea to study.. but im dun1 to waste my parent money too much... i was trying to tink how i goin to study my degree.. part time or full time? argh! i hate my life... a basterd in sec.. slacker in poly... future ??? i dunno...

i am so jealous of ppl's life, they at least know what they like and their goal.. yet mi? juz like all my sec sch friend... still blur... tsk tsk...

YEAH!!!

Finally 6 months of work, i am free from waking up early the morning liao... nw i can sleep until what time i like... HAHAHAHAHA!!! i am so happy.... but quite sad to leave the company since i know my people over there... Madeline, Nicole, Annie ,Shena, Bryan, Ray etc... really wish them could handle their work there without mi... LOL...

on AUg 14, my mother & grandma & i & ivan & jeremy(later then join us at old airport road) go pray my grandfather... during tat day, i not careful burn 1 hole in my arm... tat was so stupid lor... joss stick totally stick in my skin and tat was so hurt!! after around 2 yr nvr go see my grandfather since that time ivan & i go shift him to his new home...

what so great about on Aug 14 & 15 is we ( ivan & Jeremy & I ) finally gather once again... kind of miss those days when we holiday we will actually take turn go each other hs and stay... as we grow up, we begin to get busy wif our own life and work... nw very rare to meet up... tsk tsk.. hope when we grow up still able to mantain our BEST Cousin relationship... LOL.. if this is seen by them, sure tio scold why i so gay..lol...

then we plan to go swimming on Aug 15 so we go stay ivan hs since it is near to my aunt hs which we can swim for free... haha... i & jeremy meet ivan & his gf (4get her name.. die sia..) ivan's gf go make her hair, so i go treat ivan & jeremy go eat HK Cafe since i work for so long for IBM, then also muz at least treat them meal ma... see.. i so gd rite... we tok alot of stuff.. of coz mostly is our family stuff lor... i tink we are the 3 cousin that really care for our family... we do look out for our family members.. of coz is the younger generation la.. those older generation we also cannot help =D

then after that we go watch movie... then go ivan hs slack lor... Aug 15 we go our 7th aunt hs and swim.. swim until all of us got sun burn... LOL... but i didnt manage to get darker.. i wan to be abit tan.. i too white liao... LOL... going to drag them go swiming again...

this week is a tired week for mi.. i been going out everyday... i am so tired.. long time nvr go out liao beside work lor....have go out and do errand for my work...haiz... still so busy... but lucky wed is a great great great day... i go SHOPPPING!!!! lol.. buy 3 shirt and 3 pant... spent around 100+.. most impt is YONG MEI YUN pei mi lor... WAHAHA.. my nose is getter longer liao.. too proud... haha... my nose almost bleed sia... =X=X=X i better keep my mouth shut... let me enjoy myself.. hahaha....(cut short everything)

dunno whether still got chance to see her again?? since she going to AUS for 1 yr.. while i will be in NS serving... LOL...

ok.. tat not like myself...sound so sad like tat... we muz be Happy!! happy every sec every min every hr every moment... coz i dun1 to waste any single moment of my life to be sad... Smile every1... Think of all the beauty around us... and u will be happy =D=D=D.. So ppl.. Try to smile more since it is FOC...

Update!

MIA for so long again.. too lazy or no time to blog... too busy since past 1 month.. been dealing with all kind of thing.. i holding 3 jobs in total...

sound alot rite.. but the 3rd job is about deployment & training.. i can do it at home and doesnt require mi to be office... sound easy?? but it is way too wrong. its take up all my time after my work in IBM, and its doesnt have fix hours, meaning i am 24/7 stand by. My job scope is to deploy my promoters to which outlet for weekday & weekend and give training if require for new people.. Training is easy... but deploy people is hard.. i have contact at least 15 ppl to ask them when they free to work.. then gather every informantion i get and sort into 1 excel sheet. then later have to sort them out into each outlet based on their free day to work. I also dunno now of these day promoters very hard to please... keep wanting to get location that is near their place... Wah piang... bro and sis u tink easy ar.. i got ppl that can work for 2 weekend , u can work like 1 weekend, of coz muz put u another location la... when i tell them like tat, then they say they dun1 to work tat day since the place to far... F***.... my batch of promoters also dun dare to say to our last time in charge.. i like going around S'pore, go westmall, imm, Yishun, TP,CP,parkway, paragon & bugis. Almost all the outlet i went.. i also nvr once complain..

sometime i feel like scolding all of them, i also spent almost my night to tink where to locate u all best... i was like spenting 3 hr staring the com and see which slot is suitable or best for u guys... I normally should be busy during tue and wed, since the deadline to hand in the sheet is wed night.. but got some ppl yaya sia, last min give me trouble.. cannot work, then can work, wah piang...in the end i even on fri night have to report to my boss about the last update...

deployment i already veri fan with that liao... nw i like also handling problem with promoters, have to hear what problem they face or what help they need. Such as; pay increase, more phones to loan, more shirt, phone spec, certain outlet dun like, staff not friendly etc.. then i like have to sms them back.. those time is i am working during IBM, meaning i doing my work in IBM while helping out to reply those msg... i am very busy le, some more IBM work is too many for time being...

i have to msn with my boss in MSN for 1 -2 hr to update him with the deployment and feedback. like if any1 of the promoter got complain, i must like to settle the problem also.. then which promoter need phone, i have to pass phone to them also, (longest pass phone : from expo go to westmall, then go back to bugis then TPY),No Timesheet i also have to fax to them or have to bring them personally, like 2molo, i have to go down to CP.. wah lau, 1 hr ride le.. go and back, waste my 2 hr time. go there also muz check out how sale and how the feedback from the promoter..

bascially is promoters is the main problems... Old bird, new bird, average bird all i have to handle, i like the mother bird... haha...

Enough of work!!!! Worned out by work liao la... On Aug 5th, i fall sick, 1st time i sick so serious in 2008 that i have to go see doctor...Aug 5th was alright only, i just feeling veri veri weak, seriously veri weak, i tink a kid can even push mi down.. bone all aching.. then head damn pain sia... keep pressing my head, then got a bit of fever, like around 38.2... the whole night i cannot sleep sia..like every 1 1/2 hr i keep waking up bcoz of my head.. too pain to sleep.. 6 of Aug more worse, i woke up 6am, then i cannot sleep properly liao... i was like going to my parent room and sleep their bed for awhile then i go my bro room sleep, then go back my room sleep, like 7 plus i still cannot sleep well, i was feeling weak, cold, fever and head pain, i sms my boss i take leave. i go my living room and sleep in a funny pose.. i tink i too tired tat i dun care my head pian, i fall asleep in my living room for 2hr.. then wake up again.. i go my bro bed sleep again for few hr b4 go see doctor...

I thought the earth is shaking, my vision is very bad and the image is like moving.. i have to walk very slow and have to concentrate very hard.. i am too weak that time... during the nitez my fever instead of going down, it went up 39, i am totally freak out, i thought this time i CMI liao... but after eating the medicine then i tink everything went alright.. till nw i still got glastic pain.... nw eat medicine to cut the pain.. it is like every few min then pain... it went like 2 -3 hr then stop..after 1hr , then it begin agian... it just like girl PMS... ahh!! i hate to be sick.. make mi so stress up...

My time is not enough... have to squeeze so many thing inside..muz really go find 1 free day at least...

Ooh La La

Haha...time really past that fast.. today was my lion competition...kind of miss my days for the copmpetition... but this time different, in someway i feel so different from the past competiton...

this time round, i actually dun feel so nervous as my last experience as a 'ba player'?? i feel alright, as usual, i sti;ll sweat like hell.. lucky i hand my spec to wei yuan(botak)haha....

My only disappointment is i make a mistaken which i feel really really bad of it... i now still feel quite bad... but nah... my character is like after a sleep, i should be alright... so hack care man...

no more long travellin time from expo to woodland... no more 6pm go woodland...

now i can do my OT and earn more money.... i am goin to be earning very little for last month since i been taking off and go back to sch help out... dun say i like money la.. it is just i feel like earning more only... i also duno how i going to spent those money.. maybe just rot in bank.. or once in the while go shoppin since i long time nvr really got time to shop... my last shop is damn rush lor.. like around 9 go orchard and get my bag and 2 shirts with adrian after doing those props in sch since 10am to 8pm... that was tiring man... the next still got work... tsk tsk..

finally 2molo i off... dunno whether wan to slack at home or go meet those fan club people... feel like meeting them to chat.. but i feel like slacking at home & no mood to go out... they meeting at 12pm.. i mean wth.. so early... those time i still sleeping.. i admit i am a pig.. i need at least 12hr of sleep... confused confused...

finally my order have arrive.. those pic is i spent around 85 buck...

cool rite...

now my room got 3 poster... shit.. not enought for more poster... tsk tsk...sad

i am so tired... from those work, training and not enought rest... i tink i gonna faint soon...

2molo will be the good day to slack... i scare i will feel sianz if i slack too much...

Time/ Experience/ Money

it been some time that i haven been blogging... time pass really fast... I been out from sch for 4 mth already... 1 leg into the harsh society... been working with all kind of people... experience different thing...

I have work factory packer, door to door saleman, "cleaner"(work at BAT, job scope more toward cleaner than factory worker), promoter (hp & sony product) & office work(IBM)...

4 year of working yet y saving is like empty.. my friend got 6-7k in bank who working only 3 yr++.. look like i been spentin too much...

i only recall that i spent 1k on HP, $600 on MP3 player, $400 on psp, 2.2k on laptop...i rmb bcoz that is a huge amount.. i think 1k on VCD, PC games, Drama etc... then i tink left is lent money(bad debt), eating , transport ba.... nw i am very very poor... aim to hit my target b4 i go NS.. look like i still havent even cross the least amount that i should have hit it like 2 mth ag.. tsk tsk... spent too much liao....

I have been think what i going to work in the future after NS... studying? i would like to have a degree since nw is a MUST... but my result..*shake head* i also dunno what course i should study... i somehow more interested in sale.. like marketing but my bro say marketing is a general term. there are many type of marketing.. it is very hard to study... i am too troubled by my own future...

i also have the thought of working at mediacorp.. but not those actor or singer la... i also know my ability... haha... i feel like working as a backstage people... i tink it is very fun... but i haven not really ask anyone in this field.. may i should ask Jason( my last time fac in RP) who is working at there as a backstage people... will like to work there as part timer to gain experience... but too bad, no people to intro... haha....

banking is a job which i like to try but i am not very sure what the job scope.. must research more abt it... i heard is can earn big $$$$... ($_$).. MONEY!!!!

Future is a very blur for me now... i now at the junction which i must really think as it can affect my future and i dun like to regret.. i regret too much thing liao... tsk tsk.. for studen life, my path is straight as my parent plan it for me.. from pri sch to sec sch then poly/JC.. nw my parent leave it to me to think... of coz they are worried.. keep asking what i am going to do...

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate to think... damn damn...

Bits & Pieces of Memories

Haunted By Memories...
Good Memories do not mean Good 2 some1 as it will always build a unseen wall/barrier which can make a person to stop and stay at its current path..

2yr + liao, i take a look back of my path, in the end i found out tat i still struck at the same old position.. nvr really once move forward... Did my memories build a wall tat is too high for me to climb? Or just i dun1 to move on still looking at the bits & pieces of memories? Or i still in the lost and unwilling to face the facts?

Dreams that i have made is countless, but the dreams which i still rmb clearly is with U in it.. i still feel the pain, shocked lost, lonely and somehow of saddness... It clearly break my heart and I feel like running away from reality...

Somehow i feel wat i doing nw is useless, no aim no purpose... Look like i LOST myself for 2yr ++ without myself noticing.. i thought i have once lost the vision of U.. but after all it came back and much more clearer...

Memories begin to devour me up.. I can feel tat i am goin to be lost, walking zombine?? nah... maybe juz a person who is struck in the world of memories...

U are unreachable & untouchable since tat day, i begin to feel the saddness...WHY!!

I going to be overstress, look like my mental is not ready yet... Why do human will feel lonely??

Tired... I NEED TO REST!!!

oh man.. currently in office doing work.. slackin at the moment.. haha...

after came back from malaysia, i feel so so tired...
everday late for work, wake up 8 am then reach work around 930 sia... feel so ps when come late...

damn tired... nw have the thought of quiting my promoter job.. haizz.. but no money ...

PLZ, give a day of 28 hr. let mi rest 4 more hours...

Summary

i'm back from action.. wah... too many thing to say.. going through harsh time and tight shedule...

the first time i going to delcare is I FINALLY GOT MY PSP!!!!! after a long time, i finally get it...

the second time is i got my 1st PAY from IBM....my bank from 0 to 1k++.. shoot up sia... cool... and the good thin is i still haven spent much of it... my pay from SE is coming soon too... 2k come to papa... haha...

3rd thing is i came back from Malaysia.. went there wif ivan family and jeremy and JJ... happening sia... know 1 new friend over there.. didnt manage to play the theme park since is raining... the only best day is the 1st day.. we go haunted house(indoor), pub,club & KTV... we really enjoy too much on 1st day.. i get a bit of hang over since we drink 3 bottle of red wine and 3 jugs of beer which i cannot take it.. i hate tiger and i can even throw up even i drink 1 cup... WTH lor... i drink such as vodlka etc also nvr throw up b4... go KTV, we really sin and shout sia.. all went high...

i tink tat all ba.. 2molo is another workinig day... haiz... non stop sia... i am workin machine nw...

Officially Graduate !!!!

today was my graduation day... last day of my student life in RP...

i tink many ppl will feel sad since 3 yr wif RP and friends, after today, all of us are going to carry on their life and go separate... meet up will be hard again as some go work, ns, schooling.. it require time and effort to meet up again...

i hope we are able to meet up and joke around like in the past...

BYE BYE RP...

LIM TEE YAN, ur path is still long, dun have to be so fan at the moment.. take 1 step at a time, i noe u r unable to get used of working life... slowly to get used.. 1 day u sure will get used since 55 yr old is the age where all of us retire.. till then, endure the pain and 1 day u will laugh how naive ur thinking nw of not able to get used of waking up early.. 1 day u will laugh at ur own past when slipping through ur photo album...so juz endure.. lol..

Taking Photo is the best way of keep ur fading memorise throughout of ur life...

Diary is the best way of recording ur days in life

Friends are the best example of memories that existed in life

when all these 3 thing join together = life....

i tokin rubbish again.. lol...

today is a nice day to gather wif friends again... eat dinner wif them... tok cock wif them... life in the past is nvr gone when friends still remain...

Juz A Post

juz finish a day... time really past fast.. i have been working almost nonstop for 1 1/2 mth liao... but pay haven come.. -_-"""

once my sister ask mi what is the meaning of living?? i reply the meaning of living is looking forward a better 2molo, maybe a better 2molo may not come 2molo but it will come 1 day..

but it is true?? or juz a sentence tat keep ppl carry on their life??

i juz wan to know wat i can expect to look for in my path of life?? wat my goal of life ? i tink every1 have their part to play.. so wat mine?? look like i haven found yet...i look so lost & unsure wat i am going to do in life??

A warrior takes a sword in hand,
clasping a gem to his heart.
Engraving vanishing memories into the sword,
He places finely honed skills into the stone.
Spoken from the sword,
handed down from the stone...
Now the story can be told...

oh god... i need a REST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh man.. i damn tired...it has been 2 week tat i haven got a day to rest... i going to collapse soon.... work work work is all in my mind.. standard wake up 7 then go work.. work till 6 (earliest) or up to 10pm (latest).. i going to faint... i am a pig.. i need 12hr of sleep.. i hate to be woken up alarm...

where my 1st half of my pay??????????? i am waiting... shit...money faster faster come.. i need u... i cannot wait to lay my hand on PSP slim liao... once i got my pay i go order liao... faster...

2 days liao.. i keep having bad sleep.. i noe i cannot take it yet i go watch still... blame on mi... stupid mi sia... keep thinking of those useless thing.. make myself afraid of nth... i tink too much when i close my eye.... BRAIN, u can rest when i sleeping, u dun need to be so hardworking liao.. give u time to rest oso dun1... haizz.z..

wet wet wet

i like rain.. but nw i hate it... damn!!! since i work for IBM, i hope rain dun come...bcoz if it rain then im afraid i have to get wet at 2 times, come office go home, eat go and back.. more worse if the rain is heavy i tink i have starve myself in office since i cannot get out.. it mean i eat nth for the whole day juz like 2dae...oh man... rain plz go... since this week i have get wet for 4 days in a row... wah... so suprise tat i am not sick yet...pray hard not get sick... i hate sick.. only throat at the moment pain abit... mayb bcoz of yesterday celebrate wei hao 21th birthday....

today sky look black since afternoon, rain non stop... haiz.. struck in office and read my chines noval... sianz 1/2.. today finish my work at 530, i can go hm liao wan lor... but rain, then i stay hoping it will stay around 6.. but wait till 630 still haven stop, then i hack care liao.. walk under rain again... lucky got jacket to cover me.. if not more cold.... phew..these few days will be going to be cold, so ppl take care of urself... dun get sick... haha....

Interesting

http://justwoman.asiaone.com/Just%2BWoman/News/Women%2BIn%2BThe%2BNews/Story/A1Story20080225-51338.html

http://justwoman.asiaone.com/Just%2BWoman/News/Women%2BIn%2BThe%2BNews/Story/A1Story20080303-52398.html
this two webstie is taken from SPH website.. quite interesting.... shld go read sia...

'Some women are hypocritical as they demand to be taken seriously and treated equally, but when it comes to dating etiquette, they expect their boyfriends to attend to their every need'

Singapore women are 'too pampered and demanding'

'Some of them are a bit of a nightmare and expect too much from men,'

'There should be give and take in a relationship. If they are always piling on the pressure on men to do this and do that, they'd just put them off.'

some of the sentences tat i feel quite interesting... no offence gal.. juz sharing only... haha...

oh man... still not sure whether shld i get psp anot... hmmm.....since jun long say i actually not veri hardcore in gaming since i only play few games only.. juz like ps2.. bought it and juz play only few games... aiya..dunno la...fan for nth.. when the time come the say la...lol...

Bye Bye!!

today is my boss last day in IBM.. kind of sad since i have been working wif her for the past 3 weeks... she take gd care of mi, keep advising mi of now of these day how the world is like... teach mi stuff etc..

We will miss u.. even thought ur new office is near us... but it is not going to be the same anymore... Gd Bye & Gd Luck... May u sucess over there.. Ash....

oh ya.. i got another nick.. cool.. this time is call se lang... 1st is stalker then kidnapper... oh mine... how many nick will u give mi???

Haizz.....

today take a stupid half day off man... mistaken tat we have to get the card personally yet it is only for those whose apply for guest to come muz come down personally to get it... sh*t... wasted my time and money....sianz 1/2 lor...

chye yan get mi 2 boxer for my bday.. lol... got pink & yellow... funny desgin... haha.... thank alot...

today spent $50 sia... heart pain... waste money sia.. i am broke.. how to survive till next pay..haiz... have to go budget mode again... MRT fare so exp.. $3 a day...5 days is $15 sia...exp exp.. today go watc 10000 B.C.. haha another movie for this week... not bad... lots of action scence and somehow is similiar to 300.... Gal chio sia.. only the last part la.. since most of the part her face cover wif dirt... enjoy the day wif zg, wei hao, cq & wk... since most of us are working, we can hardly see each other... hopefully our plan to oversea is still on... nw working hard for the oversea plan....

u ask 2day why i laugh sound so happy when u reject mi, i lie to u... althought i alr expect wat ans u will give, i still somehow feel sad abt it.. tat y i laugh to cover or used it to wipe away the saddness/ disappointment... i actually wanted wanted so badly to ask u tat i got chance?? but i tink i cannot or dare to heard wat ans u will give.. therefore i still choose to keep silent...but deep in my heart wanted to know wat the ans u will give?...dun feel bad juz bcoz u rekect mi many times then force urself to do thing tat u dun like.. as it will also give wrong infor to mi... even thought i will feel disappointed but it is better to make clear as i really dunno wat u think or feel... somehow i feel i still got chance yet i oso feel tat i alr gone case... juz hanging the cliff and struggling to climb up...i am confused.. knowing how diffcult or harsh this path will give, yet i still walk... am i crazy or wat... even wei hao ask why i like tat... haha...

i myself noe wat person i am... i can really be silent and quiet for the whole day if i really want... but if i choose to be like tat, then ppl will pointing finger at mi and say why emo or watever sh*t... i talk too much then ppl will say i noisy... i really dunno wat u guys expecting mi to be... i am like living up to u guys expectation, i live wat kind of life is all up to u all, i juz a puppet or a toys to make u happy... Stephen Chow once say, "there are 2 kind of ppl in the world; hero & clown" he choose to be clown in his acting career which bring him to where he stand nw... i totally agree, if all ppl are hero then it is goin to sianz , therefore u need clown to lighten the world... we can normally everywhere there are a grp of friends together, in the grp of friends there comfirm got a clown which make them bond together...

my 'blood' bro really veri funny sia... after seeing my blog , then he say he actually didnt noe tat i keep something from him as we normally will share our problem, happy, sad etc together... then he call at night to ask wat problem i have and say tat i can find him if i need some1 to tok to... haha... always fan mi wat problem i have.. i really appreciate it.. but its okie.. for nw i still can handle.. but if the day come, i hope bro u dun come ask mi questions, let mi be alone for the few days, let mi slowly heal or take in the pain tat i suffur.. after tat then i can share... for now i told u everything but i only didnt tell u which matter is the i keep.. tat matter only u noe.. no1 else... so dun say i nvr update u anything... maybe for today stuff haven la.. but anyway my blog got say la... so u go slowly explore explore ba...wahaha....

OMG.,, nw is 2 am ,,, sh*t sh*t.. have to get 7.. left 5 hr sia.... going to be a tired day for 2molo... expo i going to see in less than 9 hr...haizzz :(

The Leap Years

yeah man.. finally have the time and slot of me to watch this show.. wanted to watch this show for a long time but no time.. yesterday actually plan to watch movie but too bad no gd show to watch at tpy.. in the end.. went home and sleep.. yesterday was so so so tired... after eating dinner around 9 then went bed... sleep till 7 am.. nice sleep even thought i woke up 3 times during the night...

drag my cousin to watch The Leap Years.... almost went to sun plaza since i only see eng wah got got late slot... lucky my cousin say bishan have if not.... went to bishan and eat while waiting... my cousin keep making noise saying me gay sh*t, bloody gay as we saw most of the people watchin this moive are couple, i even saw my friend wif his gf...

too bad... jeremy u have to watch wif mi as i treating u man.. nvr heard b4 a chinese saying, i fork money, u provide strength... wahahha...the movie was great somehow...i like this saying "there is an obscure leap year custom practiced in Ireland where men cannot refuse a proposal or date from a woman should she do so on February 29th" so guys,, watch out when feb 29 come... haha.... wah piang.. the gal only met the guy 4 times then marry to him liao.. got such thing meh.. somemore every 4 yr then meet, their patience damn gd sia... can wait so long... worship them sia..

1/4 through the movie, my butt cannot take it sia... so suan... i sit from 9am to 7pm and from 925pm to 1130pm... damn... almost cramp sia....

there are lots of movies that i wan to watch.. oh man.. some1 plz pei mi go watch..

Secret

it not good to keep secret as it can really tought to a person... i really admire those ppl who can keep secret for a long time or bring the secret undisclose even they are going to die... Secret is a burden to ppl as it can affect them in many ways.... it can be good or bad.. depend wat secret he/she carrying...

i'm tired, veri tired of keeping a secret which i have kept for at least 4 yrs... many ppl ask mi b4 which i choose to keep silent.. i let them say all they wan.. all kind of story.. i still remain silent..juz wan to let the case closed.. i always tell my friends to carry on their life even their partners left them.. i always say ' dun let them see that u r weak & hurt. show them tat u can live better without them' , ' leave those past behind, 2molo will be a better day', 'Work & Play, keep urself busy, stop when the day come when u no longer tink & feel sad', 'Be Strong, dun let them affect u, it is hurting those ppl who care u', 'life will still carry on even u r down, why not live ur life with fun & laughter, wouldnt is better than sad throughout ur life, it will be damn tired' etc...

but it is hard when come to me in person.. like today nicole from m1 told mi, in service line, we smile in surface yet our heart is crying... i smile to every1, no1 will ever notice when i sad or in trouble, i choose to remain silent & normal... so tat i can have peace instead of questions flying around.. sometime i like to be alone as i can feel peace, no stress, feel the world is quiet...tat is the time i feel i not exist in this world..

i feel veri bad of it... it is me.. it is my fault..n i am really sorry...time wait no 1.. words cannot be taken back when it is said..i need some1, some1 who i can tok to... not juz mocking at mi when i say..but no1 have taken my word serious as i am juz a clown & joker...
but i feel happier in tat way as no1 is affect by my personal problems... i have no right to make their moods feel bad juz bcoz of mi...lucky for mi.. i have not collapse yet..but soon, i tink i am unable to take it... i still waiting, waiting for the right person...

Bday Celebration!!!

Feb 28 was my Bday.. having fun throughout the evening...shuang sia.. a little disappointed for certain thing.. but overall was damn fun.. as usual, meet up my gang of friends.. alan even come to expo and find me... then at ps meet lena, cq , wk and wei hao.. as again, eating is a big problem for us... thinking of where to eat... finally at pizza hut and eat our dinner... the service there is damn lousy lor.. wait for so long for our soup and wei hao ask 2x for chilli but nvr come in the end... wth lor.. some more we still have to pay service charge... -_-"""


then go to cathey there and walk around and eat my ice cream 'cake"... sing song and tok cock abit... then later go to cq hs nearby to drink.. drink abit then every1 go take photo.. haha... went crazy and take all kind of photos... i even act drunk and sleep on floor... oh mine.... thank lena for helping us to take photo.... haha

My Cake
Lamers!!! LOL

DRUNK!! School Boi Family

my 'blood' bro during 1 plus come my hs and bring cake... lol... celebrate wif 2 pcs of $2 cake... i appericate his effort as he at least rmb my day today... haha.... tok abt relationship and try to tok some sense into him.. give some advise and example.. hope he is able to clear his mind and know what he want... wish him all the best....

2nd Cake From 'Blood' Bro





btw i make 3 wishes today.. 3 all similar la.. hope it really work... wahaha... p.s i love u, i wan to watch the movie... it look so touching and nice plot when i reand the trailer and plot through wikipedia... i wan to date my out to watch this film.... haizzz... look like no chance at all....

Bday!!!

nw the time pass mid night... i offically declared myself as 20th boy? guy? man?? haha... watever man.. i juz turn 20th... 1st is da gu gu , chye yan, daniel , jun long & my bro greet me at this time... even my bro greet mi..

sadly to say.. 2molo i still have to work till 6pm... wat man.. past 2 days i been working OT.. till 9pm & 8 pm... doing checking sia... 700 PO to check.. head pain sia...

Surprise in my life...

i tink in my life i got 2 biggest surprise... 1st surprise is tat joanne say yes... after many time of asking and rejection... she finally nodded her head...too bad is i nvr appreciated her...i still feel sad as i really nvr done my part as a bf for her... sorry.. if time can go back.. i will do thing more to make u happy.. but time wait no one...

another is recently is tat mei yun finally agree to go out wif mi.. oh mine.. i tio stun when she agree... even thought the reasons she give is : i going to ns, i leaving RP, my bday, feel bad of rejecting mi alot of time... i still appreciated her time... 1st time so close looking at her... wow... haha... i am sick man... thank you mei yun... i enjoy my meal as i can see u.. wahaha....

Relationship Troubles & Chingay

why do ppl like to take thing for granted when their partner treat them good... izzit gettiing used of getting pamper by their partner...then expecting everytime to get pamper??? maybe he overlook u when u needed some attention such as u sick or in trouble, but u oso muz tink for him... maybe he got something on tat may need his 100% attention such as exam, family problem etc.. not only u need his pamper.. sometime it is good tat u pamper him back... i hate gals who keep using break up when quarrel.. it is damn stupid to use it... say everytime hurt her when quarrel.. GAL do u noe tat when u say tat... u dunno how hurtful is to a guy who love u veri much... dun blame to quarrel..

yesterday feb 23 is my bro daniel 20th bday...went to thai disco.. wah... so long nvr come liao... change to a bigger place and cleaner as no smoking liao... only the back cabin can smoke... lucky if not i going to die soon as my those bros are heavy smokers.. phew... drink a bit... the most sad thing is tat bday boi lose his money... he bring 600 to thai disco.. come out left 200.. 300 is for martel... then he lose 100.. dunno where he lose.. some more he drunk liao.. temper veri hot.. but lucky he nvr go whack ppl..dunno how my bday going to look like since daniel wan mi to go thai disco.. since is their annviersy so we can get better deal.. but i have tight $$ since i keep lenting money... haiz.. i tink i got lent up $800...

today went to chingay for RP... maybe it is going to be the last time since i am working 7 days in a week which i am unable to attend any training... today big flag again.. haizzz.... dunno how to play man... so i juz go there be helper.. help to carry, hold those pole... not bad experience... good bye RP Lion dance.. may u all excel... i will try to come back if i have time...lol...

Feeling?

Juz listen this song from youtube.. nt bad..

Snow Patrol You Could Be Happy Lyrics

You could be happy and i won't know
But you weren't happy the day i watched you go.
And all the things that i wish i had not said,
Are played in loops till it's madness in my head.is it too late to remind you how we were?
But not our last days of silent screaming blur.
Most of what i remember makes me sure
I should've stopped you from walking out the door.

You could be happy i hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far
Somehow everything i own, smells of you
and for the tiniest moment it's all not true.
Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back, don't think just do
More than anything i want to see you girl
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world

Taken from jeremy blog.. totally agree wif him.. nice1

why the pain cant go away?

why the feeling just can't go away?

Why must bad things always happen when life is getting better?

It's like while you are climbing up a very high wall reaching the peak, yet,due to some factors, you suddenly fall back to the bottom.The pain is left deeply inside your heart, a scar that can never be erased. The happy and fun times, the sweet moments that happened at the blink of an eye, could turn into a nightmare. Life is a bitch...playing people in a way it wants, torturing people in a very evil and frightening way.

run away from reality,
running away in every possible way,
hurting oneself and hurting another and everyone around.
but when facing the truth and reality, its a cold truth you wish you didn't have to face.
It's like you wanna run away from all this stuff but yet you will be entangled into the mess. The heart has been broken over and over again. Numbed and cold, sadness and sorrow, what has life in me become? i do not know... all i know is i can no longer be the person i am in the past.The gate of impossibility, the gate of happiness, the gate of despair, is only one step away from me

jeremy is damn emo king...

Observe with how much previdence Nature, mother of humankind, thought of spreading into all
things a bit of madness, and gave Man more passion than reason, so that everything would less sad. If every mortal would keep away from any relationship with wisdom, "old age" would not exist. Human life is nothing but a game of Madness. The heart is always right"”

Never criticize your wife for her shortcomings or when she does something wrong. Always bear in mind that because of her shortcomings and weaknesses, she could not find a better husband than you

a perfect match can only be found between a blind wife and a deaf husband ,because the blind wife cannot see the faults of the husband and the deaf husband cannot hear the nagging of the wife. Many couples are blind and deaf at the courting stage and dream of perpetual perfect relationship.

It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character

You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemn you. Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future.

We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge. People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.

tired tired... dunno why so tired.. mayb bcoz i been sitting down whole day and data entry... eyes oso got tear... too dry liao....
still cannot get over... still have to smile when see ppl in office... only when i am alone walking hm then i feel calm & peace...
life got up and down.. i currently going through 1 of my down in my life... this sun is a test.. i gonna to face her.. dunno how to face... tinkin of wed calling her... to make thing clear... coz her ans is still blur to mi...
My weapons are my conviction; I never give up my conviction before the enemy, even if it means death."

Problems

Yesterday can say 1 of my most ... in my life... i not so sure wat kind of word to use... sad? disappointed? angry? suprise? etc.. DUNNO is in my mind... feeling was down all the way from thomas plaza to home... haiz... 2dae working.. still have to smile to customers even my feeling is down and bad...

today was another bad days... meet 2 customers whom feel like slapping their face up down left right... think them customer then big ar... i take off my SE clothes, i comfirm scold them if they treat mi like tat... long time M1 customer big ar... muz treat u gd ar..ur ownself dun have the manner to let ppl treat u gd... 1 female customer more worse... w910i in M1 only got 2 colour.. BLACK & RED... DUN HAVE BROWN COLOUR...OK!!!! i say dun have bcoz u in M1 asking mi how many colour w910i have... u cannot expect i say M1 have singtel colour rite... so dare to come M1 and ask singtel phone.. go bang the wall la... another no manner person...

AHHHHHH!!!mood not veri gd.... didnt know it affect so much... haizz... wat to do... this type of thing oso cannot force.. i dun blame u... i juz blame myself... juz hope i can recover fast... next week is a testing for my endurance.. straight 6 days of working... hope i can take it...

Valentine's Day & 1st Day at IBM

today was a tiring day for me... 1st day working in office.. everything is a new experience for me.. it is a different feelin when i 1st working in m1 as a promoter , factory worker at samson's mother workplace, BAT factory worker. i feel only this job and promoter is stress as my 1st day is i go alone and work... no friends, new environment... all is new to me... i hope i can endure 3 mth of working there.. and earn big money as well... hahah...$8 per hr... 1.5x for OT... cannot wait for OT...

since 2day is my 1st day.. basically i got nth to do.. juz reading a big file with lot lot lot of paper.. toking abt SAP... a new program for me to learn... shiok sia... can u imagine tat i spent my 8 hr of working to read up the SAP stuff... more worse is tat i didnt even manage to read finish all... lucky 2molo IBM is celebrating CNY... shuang sia... free money again... hope it happen again or let mi busy in IBM to let my time pass faster... haha....

Today really quite disappointed tat didnt manage to pass the gift to Mei Yun... and nvr see her today... today is VALENTINE DAY... yet nvr see her.. haizz... wiat for her at thomas plaza from 8-10.. 2 hr of waiting .. i saw ppl go in and come out.... i juz standing outside like an idiot... sad sad... the rose i bought has lose its meaning liao...

this are the gift for her

the last wan is my sis give it to mi... OMG...1st time... so kind of her....

Gathering

today meet up wif alan , zheng guang, wee kait & wei hao since chia qing in china therefore only got 5 of us today... went to watch Kung Fu Dunk... kind of crap sia... too many impossible action sia... if really got such player.. i think tat player can make big money liao.. haha...

FINALLY, like what i expected... is my DUMB jeremy cousin play wif me..lucky i am not dumb enough to believe.... heng sia....tired tired....

why don't gal always tell those guy that they reject to find other gal??? i dun understand le... say words like : "dun waste time on me", "find other gal, i name some for u" etc... dun tell mi all those thing... wat i will like to hear is "YES"... but i tink that word is very very very very hard to hear from u... haizzz... am i lousy than the other guy???

Relationship Problems???

sianz 1/2... today almost make my 'blood' brother break up wif his gf... lucky after a few hour of talking.. his gf finally forgive him... heng sia... his gf damn easy to jealous sia.. juz bcoz we having our dinner together wif 1 of our Toa Payoh female friend then she jealous.. crazy gal... lucky she not my gf.. if not i sure scold her till she wake up man... i dun like gal tat wan to cannot even stand tat i eating dinner wif my friends that mayb a gal or boy.. of coz i will not go out alone wif a female la.. as a grp is alright as i respect that each of us have the freedom to go out wif his/her circle of friends... i will trust her and i hope she also will trust me... i can give u freedom to mix wif ur friends like clubbing , watching movie etc as a grp of friends. but i also hope u can give mi the same treatment...

i cannot stand my friends talking to his gf... so eeeeeee..... make my hair stand sia.. wat baobei la, deardear la, muack muack la etc... wah piang... brother i just bside u sia... give mi so face le... some more ask mi for idea to help u patch wif her and have stand u wif all those sweet and eee words... brain and hair freeze and stand sia... WAH!!!! plz kill mi sia... i have to sit bside him for so long until nw then i come home... haven do my work report..sianz la.. have to do dunno until wat time... ke lian me sia... 'blood' brother own mi 1 la... yesterday tio wif ppl also nvr help mi whack... make mi tio 1 stupid kick from 1 young kid.. F**** sia.. dunno why yesterday no mood to whack those kids... jun long oso waiting for mi to make the 1st move...WHY NVR WHACK THEM!!!!!!!! even they 5 vs 2 of us.. we still can win lor... WHY WHY WHY....

CNY 2008

finally, my CNY is finished after 2nd day... coz 3rd & 4th of CNY i am working... damn xiong sia... chinese eve..go visit ah bi ah fu house ( my mother brother) gathering wif all my relatives... ah kor, jeremy, andy, mac and i go play DOTA... long time nvr touch liao.. abt 1 - 2 yr +.. quite not get used of it...KENVIN TEO FEEDER!!!! wahaha....then after tat go to ivan house and play mahjong till 5+ in the morning... lose around $23.. sianz 1/2.. haven CNY already lost money... bad sign... then 1st day of CNY play mahjong again.. won $2 after whole day playing... damn sad sia... but at least better than jeremy... whaha...lose $55.. feeder chiam....2nd day more tired... wake up and go for lion dance... wah..tired tired.. from around 8am - 9+pm... more than 12hr outside.. butt pain sia.. most of the time is on the lorry... sianz..2molo still have to work.. haven really enjoy my holiday...

unexpected thing happen to me today.. juz found out from my sister.. my distant relative juz tag me... didnt really expecting for tat...coz ivan , jeremy,mi, my those female cousins and aunties is talking abt her... manting no worry... is toking abt gd things not bad thing...wahaha...but i scare is my those cousins using her name to cheat mi... since i kanna cheated by gal b4... kind of phobia...haizz... gd man hard to be...

Lion Dance Competition

time really pass very fast.. still can rmb that last year i am still standing to play ba for willie and adrian...this year is chet meng & raj as lion dancer, instrument will be Yang Zhao, Adrian, Zheng Ying, Mei Yun, Diana and Pei En, Kaiwen will be Big Head...
this year like better since the team that make up consist mostly all 1st year and 1st time... they get 8.03 but got mistaken then - to 7.93...
not bad for them... i think there will be improvement throughout the year... i can see RP lion dance can do a great job in national competition...
Good Job For Rp lion dance & Good Bye... i dun tink i will be coming back after CNY... unless i got a job tat is from 8am - 5pm... if not it is going to be hard for me to come back...

damn tired after painting my house walls... tired tired... hand complaining liao... 2molo still have to paint.. didnt expect my holdiay to be like this....

Last Day in RP...

today is my last day in RP as a student...feeling is different from the past... iin the past i was like looking forward for holiday to come and slack... nw a long period of time for me to slack.. but i somehow feel something missing from my life... i think is the time for me to gradute from the life of studying and ready to step into the harsh society....some picture taken after sch...

trying to kiss wo de hai zhi de ma

after sch, go out wif my usual gang(ah pok, wei hao, wee kiat, zheng guang & alan). planning to watch movie but in the end cancel.. so we go town area to have our dinner and tok cock...tired walking the area.. zheng guang notice that everytime he go out iwf us always have a hard time to decide where to eat... we are troublesome man... veri suay sia.. spoil alan slipper n bought new 1 for him... no choice who ask me to spoil it... the most important is that we tok abt our future career and job scope... we spent some time to tok abt it as i need some really advise as i dunno what i going to do after ns finish... studying or working??? we also tok abt zheng guang past history and some IT stuff... learn much thing during the tok.. richer my knowledge...

hahha... finally today can tok to Mei Yun... tok quite for 1 hr ++.. shoot her and she shoot mi... quite fun tokin to her... i like her reaction when i say her such as dumb, KPO etc... tok abt lion dance as well as 2molo is going to be our intersch competition.. hope we can get gd result... JIA YOU JIA YOU.... dun kan chiong for the 1st timer and relax for every1...

nw my FYP photo....

Mood Swing??

dunno why mood not gd... izzit mood swing or juz dun like certain thing....
nw i understand how ivan feel when his 2nd year 1st sem... the feeling damn sux... transparent or not even exist in this world... haizz... i hate leaving the sch during halfway.. feel gulity and sorry... today lesson the faci is gd and he even ask me what happen to mi...somemore today is last day for today module... dun like to end it like tat...
3rd meeting start at 1030.. i go off during my 1st breakout... mayb i hate the feeling of not doing anything then use other ppl slides to presents... i juz dunno...
any way juz wish 2molo is a better day.....

Bye Bye FYP....

kind of tired of the whole day outside.. busy for FYP and celebration/ gathering wif my friends...

nw leg and hand kind of pain as juz nw rushing for the MRT.. almost fall 2x.. sianz 1/2... long time no run or i become old liao.. die die die....

our slot is 1320, we see other teams which start early finish and walk around while we are stress and keep looking at the poster and ppt. all of us kind of nervous when the time is getting nearer. very shock and happy to see YONG MEI YUN.. suddenly juz pop out from no where... make mi no chance to comb my hair to look more shuang...wahaha... she so kind to wish me gd luck... THANK YOU.. MEI YUN...

finally finally... FYP is finished.. gone 4ever... 1 yr of project is gone... feel so relieve and stress free... but a price to pay... tio shoot like helll... sianz 1/2... hoping the whole team can get a gd result... ask too many questions liao.. ask here ask there... dunno how they get their degree.. even those simple thing oso ask.. *faint* aiya.. since it is over liao... dun wish to tok much abt it.. hoping to get C and above then i happy liao...

after presentation.. SEG have photo taking session.. not bad... at least we can take our final photo of each other in RP... all the DBME students take a photo... after it, then we take photo wif our faci Vincent Tey.. feel thankful to him as he all the long nvr give us up and give us alot of important helps... a veri gd faci and sometime abit of joker..lol...take photo wif familiar faci and friends together... unable to upload photo bcoz all the photo at chye yan.. take from her then upload...

at nitez, i go out wif my usual gang of friends for gathering as well for celebration of FYP... as usual, alan meet me and go to chinatown to meet fat nick and wee kiat... wei hao & ah pok always late as usual, therefore we go walk around and see whether got thing to eat.. hungry and tired after whole of day walking and eating ONLY 2 BAO... meet at 630, in the end we meet ah pok 740.. but we get used of he late and he oso get used of we scolding him everytime... haha..... ah pok gd la... eat steamboat at dunno where... tok cock sing song throughout the dinner... planning holding BBQ at fat nick place.... date no decide yet.. taking photo of we eating... haha.. got candid shot.. after eating walk around chinatown then later went hm since 2molo got sch...

FYP!!!!

9 hrs from nw.. i going to be in sch for my FYP presentation.. kind of nervous...
die die die.... hope i can do well for it..praying 2molo faci give chance to us...wahaha...
so soon that i going to finish my sch in RP.. time really passes very fast.. i still can rmb day 1 i lose my way to my class.. saw yuhong & wee kiat.. as i do everytime.. follow the crowd is always a good idea... spent 1 of my best time in RP with my 1st year 1st sem class.. whole of joy and fun.. the bond in the class is so strong... tina, chai lian, fiona, murali, amos, wee kiat, yuhong, thomas, li rong, jolyn etc.. so fun in tat class...all the faci are good... pity that we change class..

then after changing into PE0102.. lifestyle change again.. GAMING CLASS man...almost everyday DOTA DOTA DOTA... almost all the chinese guys play man... always 1st & 2nd meeting chiong ppt... 1st breakout chiong breakfast... 2nd breakout DOTA or Tower Defence... we guys bonding so strong.. can play game until people kick us out...Jason(enterprise faci) treat us damn good sia.. willing to share his experience and mix well with us... even went to watch movie wif us.. (FD3)... Gang of Friends : Wee Kiat, Wei Hao, Alan, Zheng Guang, Ah Pok, Kenny, Fat Nick, Samuel, Lena etc..

1st day in woodland, E25k... 1st time in class without any1 i know.. kind of strange to me.. tend to keep quiet in class...thought i will not able to make any friends within 1 day.. but in the end, i can even quarrel wif singling....
then know understand better the class, this class also very friendly and joker sia... Yan Yan Jie, Roy, Alvin (uncle man), Eddie, Sunny, Wei Yuan, Barnabas, Kah Miing, Kanchgi Baby, Gillian, Tee Yan etc...
i think this class is the most noisy class that i have attend... people can shout from 1 corner to another... i Got my Circuit Analysis Team which got our Gillian British Teacher & Slacker Tee Yan... wahaha.. got PCB Team consist of singling, yan yan jie & alvin... lastly got Sūn Wùkōng(Roy), Zhū Bājiè (Eddie), Shā Wùjìng (Me) & Táng-Sānzàng (Tee Yan)..

congrat to singling...for passing her TP...kah ming sure heart pain sia.. so good she... can drive car liao...unlike me... even basic theory still havent take... shit man.. even my cousin ivan got motor and car License... WEI HAO confirm fri booking anot...

Result

today is a tiring day sia... cannot believe the check up take abt 6 hrs.. wee kiat & me frome 930am - 330pm then finish our check up...
some guys are really damn lucky sia... still got parents come follow their son to check up...
unlike us... we even lose our way...
all the station is relax & easy.. only the IQ station is a killing station.. it kill many many many of my brain cells... i long time nvr touch math liao.. nw in 1 shot give me so many questions...
physic i nvr learn.. they oso give.. die liao lor... anyhow do....
i get into PES B.. wee kiat suay la..still pending .. currently under PES D.. but he need to do another check up...
so nw my gang of poly friend got 1 A , 2 B (but he is going anothor check up), 1 D (pending)..
aim to get A but my left hand.... haizz.z...

Medical Check Up 2molo

it is so soon man...
2molo going to be my Medical Check up.. its going to decide how i going to survive 2 yrs of jail..
Hell or Heaven???
5 more days...ending of my poly life...or my student life... going to miss those day in RP wif my friends...but.... b4 getting out of sch.. i still got FYP presentation... Wed is the day which i going to stress up... hope after FYP, can go out wif my usual gang of friends.. CHIONG for movie to celebrate...
NS is next....
shit man... tat is too soon for me.... 2 yr of 'yes sir', 'no sir' etc.. sianz 1/2..

1st Time Blogging...(test)

first time blogging...cool man...
let see how long i can last for blogging.. who know this is my first and last post...^-^
just wan to try out how a blogger feel ...
just came back from having chat wif jun long & jeremy(cousin)...
we are damn sick man.. keep tookin abt clubbing, disco, gals, relationship etc...
mostly tokin abt jeremy's relationship and his gal... cannot stop laughing when he say lots of guys like his gal man....
didn't know jun long gal change alot... tio shock when first see his pic wif her...
yesterday just watch RAMBO 4 .. it is damn cool and bloody.. rating 4 out of 5...
the only suck thing is the show last for abt 1 1/4 hrs.. wasted $9.5 just like tat...
broke broke broke... now in budget mode...in NEED OF JOB...some1 help me....