Juz a Short summary

Juz happen to be boring to see this blog which i lose touch of it for many many mths....
Saw a few old posts that i post out.. it seem time do pass fast as im in NS for 9 mths...

Im still doing fine but still cannot cope with some stuffs which i dunno why..

Stress from work, friend and outside stuffs.. But i tink the most heart pain is yesterday dream..

It make mi realise that i still haven broke free from tat chain. I saw her in a wedding dress in my dream yesterday.. it is so clear still in my mind.. and how i feel when i saw it... it broke my heart and pains is unbearable.. i dunno why im still cannot get over it... it last so long and i know u have get over it alr..

U have move on ur life and ur path of life is full of excitment and im have alr disappear within the deep of ur memory or worse; totallyerase me out of ur memory.. Juz like im not exist b4 in ur life..

To me, u do make a veri impt impact to mi.. u give mi fun, happiness, hope and more impt is love.. To me, u r unable to forget and memory of u keep surfacing up from time to time... i told u b4 i love u... more than any gals that i have seen in my life. yes i do mean it.. i nvr lie and tat the reason i couldn't forget u... seeing u drifting away from my sight, it make my heart pain and i know is my fault tat y i cannot but to wish u well in ur life...

How i wish time can turn back but it couln't... How i wish i could really put more of my attention on you.. How i wish i could express my love to you.. How i wish i could shower you with my love..
How How How.. but its too late.. nw there is another person will shower you with his love, will give you more attention and give you what u wish to have...

U r an angel who keep silent and support mi.. doesnt express much of what u really want but choose to give in to mi.. U always show mi ur smile and try to help a person like mi who is stupid and troublesome... U didnt expect much in return, what u wan is my devoted love, which can only be you.. Only YOU.. but yet i cannot do it.. My fear make u to suffer alot but yet u still remain at my side.. and say : "its okie, as long can see you then can liao" Im really thankful for your kind character and i tink i really take granted of it.. Due to my blined eyes, i couldnt see ur tear and pain of ur heart whenever we quarrel..Memory keep flowing in my mind when i writing this.. im such a fool whom couldn't see your greatness... Please. Please, Really Please that u will come back to mi, but i know the time of us is up..but my heart still couldn't let u go...

Birthday Spree

Wohoho... celebrate 2 bday in a month... HAHA...



1st is wee kiat birthday, BBQ near his house...Every1 all botak.. only i got hair...

not bad the BBQ, 1st time eat lots of thing... quite full...haha...




haiz...left mi alone outside sia... go outside oso no ppl wan to pei mi..tsk tsk... listen to their topic is about NS..





nw more worry abt NS sia.. Alan somemore injury bcoz of NS.. wah piang.. dunno how i going to live in NS...


















2nd is Goh Bday, Early Celebration bcoz his bday fall on weekday when every1 is in the camp...

i was like long time no see them liao...lost update of them liao... Goh is like next yr march ORD, then daniel sign on to NAVEl, edwin Commando.. dunno how Sng, Samson, Sifen nw? long time nvr see them liao...

Go Thai Disco and drink.. same place since 2 yr ago daniel jio mi go there drink.. LOL.. drink quite alot.. got a bit of drunk.. 2molo still got work.. sleep only for 5 hours then have to work... damn tired...

Bad Day!!!

wah!!! i almost blow up today... today got 1 person so daring to fly my airplane sia... in my 20 yrs of life , this is the 1st time....if i am still in sec sch, i will confirm 100% 100% 100% blew my temper!!!!!! ahhhhh!!!

Like an idiot walking J8 alone for like from 5plus to 9 plus?? OMG!!! tat was like 4 hrs???

Lucky got alan come pei mi.. if not i going to blew the whole J8 up... LOL....

we chat alot sia... from ns stuff to study.. look like i am not mentally prepare for my ns and study... from the chat, i was quite lost.. alan invited mi to go oversea to study.. but im dun1 to waste my parent money too much... i was trying to tink how i goin to study my degree.. part time or full time? argh! i hate my life... a basterd in sec.. slacker in poly... future ??? i dunno...

i am so jealous of ppl's life, they at least know what they like and their goal.. yet mi? juz like all my sec sch friend... still blur... tsk tsk...

YEAH!!!

Finally 6 months of work, i am free from waking up early the morning liao... nw i can sleep until what time i like... HAHAHAHAHA!!! i am so happy.... but quite sad to leave the company since i know my people over there... Madeline, Nicole, Annie ,Shena, Bryan, Ray etc... really wish them could handle their work there without mi... LOL...

on AUg 14, my mother & grandma & i & ivan & jeremy(later then join us at old airport road) go pray my grandfather... during tat day, i not careful burn 1 hole in my arm... tat was so stupid lor... joss stick totally stick in my skin and tat was so hurt!! after around 2 yr nvr go see my grandfather since that time ivan & i go shift him to his new home...

what so great about on Aug 14 & 15 is we ( ivan & Jeremy & I ) finally gather once again... kind of miss those days when we holiday we will actually take turn go each other hs and stay... as we grow up, we begin to get busy wif our own life and work... nw very rare to meet up... tsk tsk.. hope when we grow up still able to mantain our BEST Cousin relationship... LOL.. if this is seen by them, sure tio scold why i so gay..lol...

then we plan to go swimming on Aug 15 so we go stay ivan hs since it is near to my aunt hs which we can swim for free... haha... i & jeremy meet ivan & his gf (4get her name.. die sia..) ivan's gf go make her hair, so i go treat ivan & jeremy go eat HK Cafe since i work for so long for IBM, then also muz at least treat them meal ma... see.. i so gd rite... we tok alot of stuff.. of coz mostly is our family stuff lor... i tink we are the 3 cousin that really care for our family... we do look out for our family members.. of coz is the younger generation la.. those older generation we also cannot help =D

then after that we go watch movie... then go ivan hs slack lor... Aug 15 we go our 7th aunt hs and swim.. swim until all of us got sun burn... LOL... but i didnt manage to get darker.. i wan to be abit tan.. i too white liao... LOL... going to drag them go swiming again...

this week is a tired week for mi.. i been going out everyday... i am so tired.. long time nvr go out liao beside work lor....have go out and do errand for my work...haiz... still so busy... but lucky wed is a great great great day... i go SHOPPPING!!!! lol.. buy 3 shirt and 3 pant... spent around 100+.. most impt is YONG MEI YUN pei mi lor... WAHAHA.. my nose is getter longer liao.. too proud... haha... my nose almost bleed sia... =X=X=X i better keep my mouth shut... let me enjoy myself.. hahaha....(cut short everything)

dunno whether still got chance to see her again?? since she going to AUS for 1 yr.. while i will be in NS serving... LOL...

ok.. tat not like myself...sound so sad like tat... we muz be Happy!! happy every sec every min every hr every moment... coz i dun1 to waste any single moment of my life to be sad... Smile every1... Think of all the beauty around us... and u will be happy =D=D=D.. So ppl.. Try to smile more since it is FOC...

Update!

MIA for so long again.. too lazy or no time to blog... too busy since past 1 month.. been dealing with all kind of thing.. i holding 3 jobs in total...

sound alot rite.. but the 3rd job is about deployment & training.. i can do it at home and doesnt require mi to be office... sound easy?? but it is way too wrong. its take up all my time after my work in IBM, and its doesnt have fix hours, meaning i am 24/7 stand by. My job scope is to deploy my promoters to which outlet for weekday & weekend and give training if require for new people.. Training is easy... but deploy people is hard.. i have contact at least 15 ppl to ask them when they free to work.. then gather every informantion i get and sort into 1 excel sheet. then later have to sort them out into each outlet based on their free day to work. I also dunno now of these day promoters very hard to please... keep wanting to get location that is near their place... Wah piang... bro and sis u tink easy ar.. i got ppl that can work for 2 weekend , u can work like 1 weekend, of coz muz put u another location la... when i tell them like tat, then they say they dun1 to work tat day since the place to far... F***.... my batch of promoters also dun dare to say to our last time in charge.. i like going around S'pore, go westmall, imm, Yishun, TP,CP,parkway, paragon & bugis. Almost all the outlet i went.. i also nvr once complain..

sometime i feel like scolding all of them, i also spent almost my night to tink where to locate u all best... i was like spenting 3 hr staring the com and see which slot is suitable or best for u guys... I normally should be busy during tue and wed, since the deadline to hand in the sheet is wed night.. but got some ppl yaya sia, last min give me trouble.. cannot work, then can work, wah piang...in the end i even on fri night have to report to my boss about the last update...

deployment i already veri fan with that liao... nw i like also handling problem with promoters, have to hear what problem they face or what help they need. Such as; pay increase, more phones to loan, more shirt, phone spec, certain outlet dun like, staff not friendly etc.. then i like have to sms them back.. those time is i am working during IBM, meaning i doing my work in IBM while helping out to reply those msg... i am very busy le, some more IBM work is too many for time being...

i have to msn with my boss in MSN for 1 -2 hr to update him with the deployment and feedback. like if any1 of the promoter got complain, i must like to settle the problem also.. then which promoter need phone, i have to pass phone to them also, (longest pass phone : from expo go to westmall, then go back to bugis then TPY),No Timesheet i also have to fax to them or have to bring them personally, like 2molo, i have to go down to CP.. wah lau, 1 hr ride le.. go and back, waste my 2 hr time. go there also muz check out how sale and how the feedback from the promoter..

bascially is promoters is the main problems... Old bird, new bird, average bird all i have to handle, i like the mother bird... haha...

Enough of work!!!! Worned out by work liao la... On Aug 5th, i fall sick, 1st time i sick so serious in 2008 that i have to go see doctor...Aug 5th was alright only, i just feeling veri veri weak, seriously veri weak, i tink a kid can even push mi down.. bone all aching.. then head damn pain sia... keep pressing my head, then got a bit of fever, like around 38.2... the whole night i cannot sleep sia..like every 1 1/2 hr i keep waking up bcoz of my head.. too pain to sleep.. 6 of Aug more worse, i woke up 6am, then i cannot sleep properly liao... i was like going to my parent room and sleep their bed for awhile then i go my bro room sleep, then go back my room sleep, like 7 plus i still cannot sleep well, i was feeling weak, cold, fever and head pain, i sms my boss i take leave. i go my living room and sleep in a funny pose.. i tink i too tired tat i dun care my head pian, i fall asleep in my living room for 2hr.. then wake up again.. i go my bro bed sleep again for few hr b4 go see doctor...

I thought the earth is shaking, my vision is very bad and the image is like moving.. i have to walk very slow and have to concentrate very hard.. i am too weak that time... during the nitez my fever instead of going down, it went up 39, i am totally freak out, i thought this time i CMI liao... but after eating the medicine then i tink everything went alright.. till nw i still got glastic pain.... nw eat medicine to cut the pain.. it is like every few min then pain... it went like 2 -3 hr then stop..after 1hr , then it begin agian... it just like girl PMS... ahh!! i hate to be sick.. make mi so stress up...

My time is not enough... have to squeeze so many thing inside..muz really go find 1 free day at least...

Ooh La La

Haha...time really past that fast.. today was my lion competition...kind of miss my days for the copmpetition... but this time different, in someway i feel so different from the past competiton...

this time round, i actually dun feel so nervous as my last experience as a 'ba player'?? i feel alright, as usual, i sti;ll sweat like hell.. lucky i hand my spec to wei yuan(botak)haha....

My only disappointment is i make a mistaken which i feel really really bad of it... i now still feel quite bad... but nah... my character is like after a sleep, i should be alright... so hack care man...

no more long travellin time from expo to woodland... no more 6pm go woodland...

now i can do my OT and earn more money.... i am goin to be earning very little for last month since i been taking off and go back to sch help out... dun say i like money la.. it is just i feel like earning more only... i also duno how i going to spent those money.. maybe just rot in bank.. or once in the while go shoppin since i long time nvr really got time to shop... my last shop is damn rush lor.. like around 9 go orchard and get my bag and 2 shirts with adrian after doing those props in sch since 10am to 8pm... that was tiring man... the next still got work... tsk tsk..

finally 2molo i off... dunno whether wan to slack at home or go meet those fan club people... feel like meeting them to chat.. but i feel like slacking at home & no mood to go out... they meeting at 12pm.. i mean wth.. so early... those time i still sleeping.. i admit i am a pig.. i need at least 12hr of sleep... confused confused...

finally my order have arrive.. those pic is i spent around 85 buck...

cool rite...

now my room got 3 poster... shit.. not enought for more poster... tsk tsk...sad

i am so tired... from those work, training and not enought rest... i tink i gonna faint soon...

2molo will be the good day to slack... i scare i will feel sianz if i slack too much...

Time/ Experience/ Money

it been some time that i haven been blogging... time pass really fast... I been out from sch for 4 mth already... 1 leg into the harsh society... been working with all kind of people... experience different thing...

I have work factory packer, door to door saleman, "cleaner"(work at BAT, job scope more toward cleaner than factory worker), promoter (hp & sony product) & office work(IBM)...

4 year of working yet y saving is like empty.. my friend got 6-7k in bank who working only 3 yr++.. look like i been spentin too much...

i only recall that i spent 1k on HP, $600 on MP3 player, $400 on psp, 2.2k on laptop...i rmb bcoz that is a huge amount.. i think 1k on VCD, PC games, Drama etc... then i tink left is lent money(bad debt), eating , transport ba.... nw i am very very poor... aim to hit my target b4 i go NS.. look like i still havent even cross the least amount that i should have hit it like 2 mth ag.. tsk tsk... spent too much liao....

I have been think what i going to work in the future after NS... studying? i would like to have a degree since nw is a MUST... but my result..*shake head* i also dunno what course i should study... i somehow more interested in sale.. like marketing but my bro say marketing is a general term. there are many type of marketing.. it is very hard to study... i am too troubled by my own future...

i also have the thought of working at mediacorp.. but not those actor or singer la... i also know my ability... haha... i feel like working as a backstage people... i tink it is very fun... but i haven not really ask anyone in this field.. may i should ask Jason( my last time fac in RP) who is working at there as a backstage people... will like to work there as part timer to gain experience... but too bad, no people to intro... haha....

banking is a job which i like to try but i am not very sure what the job scope.. must research more abt it... i heard is can earn big $$$$... ($_$).. MONEY!!!!

Future is a very blur for me now... i now at the junction which i must really think as it can affect my future and i dun like to regret.. i regret too much thing liao... tsk tsk.. for studen life, my path is straight as my parent plan it for me.. from pri sch to sec sch then poly/JC.. nw my parent leave it to me to think... of coz they are worried.. keep asking what i am going to do...

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate to think... damn damn...