Officially Graduate !!!!

today was my graduation day... last day of my student life in RP...

i tink many ppl will feel sad since 3 yr wif RP and friends, after today, all of us are going to carry on their life and go separate... meet up will be hard again as some go work, ns, schooling.. it require time and effort to meet up again...

i hope we are able to meet up and joke around like in the past...

BYE BYE RP...

LIM TEE YAN, ur path is still long, dun have to be so fan at the moment.. take 1 step at a time, i noe u r unable to get used of working life... slowly to get used.. 1 day u sure will get used since 55 yr old is the age where all of us retire.. till then, endure the pain and 1 day u will laugh how naive ur thinking nw of not able to get used of waking up early.. 1 day u will laugh at ur own past when slipping through ur photo album...so juz endure.. lol..

Taking Photo is the best way of keep ur fading memorise throughout of ur life...

Diary is the best way of recording ur days in life

Friends are the best example of memories that existed in life

when all these 3 thing join together = life....

i tokin rubbish again.. lol...

today is a nice day to gather wif friends again... eat dinner wif them... tok cock wif them... life in the past is nvr gone when friends still remain...

Juz A Post

juz finish a day... time really past fast.. i have been working almost nonstop for 1 1/2 mth liao... but pay haven come.. -_-"""

once my sister ask mi what is the meaning of living?? i reply the meaning of living is looking forward a better 2molo, maybe a better 2molo may not come 2molo but it will come 1 day..

but it is true?? or juz a sentence tat keep ppl carry on their life??

i juz wan to know wat i can expect to look for in my path of life?? wat my goal of life ? i tink every1 have their part to play.. so wat mine?? look like i haven found yet...i look so lost & unsure wat i am going to do in life??

A warrior takes a sword in hand,
clasping a gem to his heart.
Engraving vanishing memories into the sword,
He places finely honed skills into the stone.
Spoken from the sword,
handed down from the stone...
Now the story can be told...

oh god... i need a REST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh man.. i damn tired...it has been 2 week tat i haven got a day to rest... i going to collapse soon.... work work work is all in my mind.. standard wake up 7 then go work.. work till 6 (earliest) or up to 10pm (latest).. i going to faint... i am a pig.. i need 12hr of sleep.. i hate to be woken up alarm...

where my 1st half of my pay??????????? i am waiting... shit...money faster faster come.. i need u... i cannot wait to lay my hand on PSP slim liao... once i got my pay i go order liao... faster...

2 days liao.. i keep having bad sleep.. i noe i cannot take it yet i go watch still... blame on mi... stupid mi sia... keep thinking of those useless thing.. make myself afraid of nth... i tink too much when i close my eye.... BRAIN, u can rest when i sleeping, u dun need to be so hardworking liao.. give u time to rest oso dun1... haizz.z..

wet wet wet

i like rain.. but nw i hate it... damn!!! since i work for IBM, i hope rain dun come...bcoz if it rain then im afraid i have to get wet at 2 times, come office go home, eat go and back.. more worse if the rain is heavy i tink i have starve myself in office since i cannot get out.. it mean i eat nth for the whole day juz like 2dae...oh man... rain plz go... since this week i have get wet for 4 days in a row... wah... so suprise tat i am not sick yet...pray hard not get sick... i hate sick.. only throat at the moment pain abit... mayb bcoz of yesterday celebrate wei hao 21th birthday....

today sky look black since afternoon, rain non stop... haiz.. struck in office and read my chines noval... sianz 1/2.. today finish my work at 530, i can go hm liao wan lor... but rain, then i stay hoping it will stay around 6.. but wait till 630 still haven stop, then i hack care liao.. walk under rain again... lucky got jacket to cover me.. if not more cold.... phew..these few days will be going to be cold, so ppl take care of urself... dun get sick... haha....

Interesting

http://justwoman.asiaone.com/Just%2BWoman/News/Women%2BIn%2BThe%2BNews/Story/A1Story20080225-51338.html

http://justwoman.asiaone.com/Just%2BWoman/News/Women%2BIn%2BThe%2BNews/Story/A1Story20080303-52398.html
this two webstie is taken from SPH website.. quite interesting.... shld go read sia...

'Some women are hypocritical as they demand to be taken seriously and treated equally, but when it comes to dating etiquette, they expect their boyfriends to attend to their every need'

Singapore women are 'too pampered and demanding'

'Some of them are a bit of a nightmare and expect too much from men,'

'There should be give and take in a relationship. If they are always piling on the pressure on men to do this and do that, they'd just put them off.'

some of the sentences tat i feel quite interesting... no offence gal.. juz sharing only... haha...

oh man... still not sure whether shld i get psp anot... hmmm.....since jun long say i actually not veri hardcore in gaming since i only play few games only.. juz like ps2.. bought it and juz play only few games... aiya..dunno la...fan for nth.. when the time come the say la...lol...

Bye Bye!!

today is my boss last day in IBM.. kind of sad since i have been working wif her for the past 3 weeks... she take gd care of mi, keep advising mi of now of these day how the world is like... teach mi stuff etc..

We will miss u.. even thought ur new office is near us... but it is not going to be the same anymore... Gd Bye & Gd Luck... May u sucess over there.. Ash....

oh ya.. i got another nick.. cool.. this time is call se lang... 1st is stalker then kidnapper... oh mine... how many nick will u give mi???

Haizz.....

today take a stupid half day off man... mistaken tat we have to get the card personally yet it is only for those whose apply for guest to come muz come down personally to get it... sh*t... wasted my time and money....sianz 1/2 lor...

chye yan get mi 2 boxer for my bday.. lol... got pink & yellow... funny desgin... haha.... thank alot...

today spent $50 sia... heart pain... waste money sia.. i am broke.. how to survive till next pay..haiz... have to go budget mode again... MRT fare so exp.. $3 a day...5 days is $15 sia...exp exp.. today go watc 10000 B.C.. haha another movie for this week... not bad... lots of action scence and somehow is similiar to 300.... Gal chio sia.. only the last part la.. since most of the part her face cover wif dirt... enjoy the day wif zg, wei hao, cq & wk... since most of us are working, we can hardly see each other... hopefully our plan to oversea is still on... nw working hard for the oversea plan....

u ask 2day why i laugh sound so happy when u reject mi, i lie to u... althought i alr expect wat ans u will give, i still somehow feel sad abt it.. tat y i laugh to cover or used it to wipe away the saddness/ disappointment... i actually wanted wanted so badly to ask u tat i got chance?? but i tink i cannot or dare to heard wat ans u will give.. therefore i still choose to keep silent...but deep in my heart wanted to know wat the ans u will give?...dun feel bad juz bcoz u rekect mi many times then force urself to do thing tat u dun like.. as it will also give wrong infor to mi... even thought i will feel disappointed but it is better to make clear as i really dunno wat u think or feel... somehow i feel i still got chance yet i oso feel tat i alr gone case... juz hanging the cliff and struggling to climb up...i am confused.. knowing how diffcult or harsh this path will give, yet i still walk... am i crazy or wat... even wei hao ask why i like tat... haha...

i myself noe wat person i am... i can really be silent and quiet for the whole day if i really want... but if i choose to be like tat, then ppl will pointing finger at mi and say why emo or watever sh*t... i talk too much then ppl will say i noisy... i really dunno wat u guys expecting mi to be... i am like living up to u guys expectation, i live wat kind of life is all up to u all, i juz a puppet or a toys to make u happy... Stephen Chow once say, "there are 2 kind of ppl in the world; hero & clown" he choose to be clown in his acting career which bring him to where he stand nw... i totally agree, if all ppl are hero then it is goin to sianz , therefore u need clown to lighten the world... we can normally everywhere there are a grp of friends together, in the grp of friends there comfirm got a clown which make them bond together...

my 'blood' bro really veri funny sia... after seeing my blog , then he say he actually didnt noe tat i keep something from him as we normally will share our problem, happy, sad etc together... then he call at night to ask wat problem i have and say tat i can find him if i need some1 to tok to... haha... always fan mi wat problem i have.. i really appreciate it.. but its okie.. for nw i still can handle.. but if the day come, i hope bro u dun come ask mi questions, let mi be alone for the few days, let mi slowly heal or take in the pain tat i suffur.. after tat then i can share... for now i told u everything but i only didnt tell u which matter is the i keep.. tat matter only u noe.. no1 else... so dun say i nvr update u anything... maybe for today stuff haven la.. but anyway my blog got say la... so u go slowly explore explore ba...wahaha....

OMG.,, nw is 2 am ,,, sh*t sh*t.. have to get 7.. left 5 hr sia.... going to be a tired day for 2molo... expo i going to see in less than 9 hr...haizzz :(

The Leap Years

yeah man.. finally have the time and slot of me to watch this show.. wanted to watch this show for a long time but no time.. yesterday actually plan to watch movie but too bad no gd show to watch at tpy.. in the end.. went home and sleep.. yesterday was so so so tired... after eating dinner around 9 then went bed... sleep till 7 am.. nice sleep even thought i woke up 3 times during the night...

drag my cousin to watch The Leap Years.... almost went to sun plaza since i only see eng wah got got late slot... lucky my cousin say bishan have if not.... went to bishan and eat while waiting... my cousin keep making noise saying me gay sh*t, bloody gay as we saw most of the people watchin this moive are couple, i even saw my friend wif his gf...

too bad... jeremy u have to watch wif mi as i treating u man.. nvr heard b4 a chinese saying, i fork money, u provide strength... wahahha...the movie was great somehow...i like this saying "there is an obscure leap year custom practiced in Ireland where men cannot refuse a proposal or date from a woman should she do so on February 29th" so guys,, watch out when feb 29 come... haha.... wah piang.. the gal only met the guy 4 times then marry to him liao.. got such thing meh.. somemore every 4 yr then meet, their patience damn gd sia... can wait so long... worship them sia..

1/4 through the movie, my butt cannot take it sia... so suan... i sit from 9am to 7pm and from 925pm to 1130pm... damn... almost cramp sia....

there are lots of movies that i wan to watch.. oh man.. some1 plz pei mi go watch..

Secret

it not good to keep secret as it can really tought to a person... i really admire those ppl who can keep secret for a long time or bring the secret undisclose even they are going to die... Secret is a burden to ppl as it can affect them in many ways.... it can be good or bad.. depend wat secret he/she carrying...

i'm tired, veri tired of keeping a secret which i have kept for at least 4 yrs... many ppl ask mi b4 which i choose to keep silent.. i let them say all they wan.. all kind of story.. i still remain silent..juz wan to let the case closed.. i always tell my friends to carry on their life even their partners left them.. i always say ' dun let them see that u r weak & hurt. show them tat u can live better without them' , ' leave those past behind, 2molo will be a better day', 'Work & Play, keep urself busy, stop when the day come when u no longer tink & feel sad', 'Be Strong, dun let them affect u, it is hurting those ppl who care u', 'life will still carry on even u r down, why not live ur life with fun & laughter, wouldnt is better than sad throughout ur life, it will be damn tired' etc...

but it is hard when come to me in person.. like today nicole from m1 told mi, in service line, we smile in surface yet our heart is crying... i smile to every1, no1 will ever notice when i sad or in trouble, i choose to remain silent & normal... so tat i can have peace instead of questions flying around.. sometime i like to be alone as i can feel peace, no stress, feel the world is quiet...tat is the time i feel i not exist in this world..

i feel veri bad of it... it is me.. it is my fault..n i am really sorry...time wait no 1.. words cannot be taken back when it is said..i need some1, some1 who i can tok to... not juz mocking at mi when i say..but no1 have taken my word serious as i am juz a clown & joker...
but i feel happier in tat way as no1 is affect by my personal problems... i have no right to make their moods feel bad juz bcoz of mi...lucky for mi.. i have not collapse yet..but soon, i tink i am unable to take it... i still waiting, waiting for the right person...