today take a stupid half day off man... mistaken tat we have to get the card personally yet it is only for those whose apply for guest to come muz come down personally to get it... sh*t... wasted my time and money....sianz 1/2 lor...
chye yan get mi 2 boxer for my bday.. lol... got pink & yellow... funny desgin... haha.... thank alot...
today spent $50 sia... heart pain... waste money sia.. i am broke.. how to survive till next pay..haiz... have to go budget mode again... MRT fare so exp.. $3 a day...5 days is $15 sia...exp exp.. today go watc 10000 B.C.. haha another movie for this week... not bad... lots of action scence and somehow is similiar to 300.... Gal chio sia.. only the last part la.. since most of the part her face cover wif dirt... enjoy the day wif zg, wei hao, cq & wk... since most of us are working, we can hardly see each other... hopefully our plan to oversea is still on... nw working hard for the oversea plan....
u ask 2day why i laugh sound so happy when u reject mi, i lie to u... althought i alr expect wat ans u will give, i still somehow feel sad abt it.. tat y i laugh to cover or used it to wipe away the saddness/ disappointment... i actually wanted wanted so badly to ask u tat i got chance?? but i tink i cannot or dare to heard wat ans u will give.. therefore i still choose to keep silent...but deep in my heart wanted to know wat the ans u will give?...dun feel bad juz bcoz u rekect mi many times then force urself to do thing tat u dun like.. as it will also give wrong infor to mi... even thought i will feel disappointed but it is better to make clear as i really dunno wat u think or feel... somehow i feel i still got chance yet i oso feel tat i alr gone case... juz hanging the cliff and struggling to climb up...i am confused.. knowing how diffcult or harsh this path will give, yet i still walk... am i crazy or wat... even wei hao ask why i like tat... haha...
i myself noe wat person i am... i can really be silent and quiet for the whole day if i really want... but if i choose to be like tat, then ppl will pointing finger at mi and say why emo or watever sh*t... i talk too much then ppl will say i noisy... i really dunno wat u guys expecting mi to be... i am like living up to u guys expectation, i live wat kind of life is all up to u all, i juz a puppet or a toys to make u happy... Stephen Chow once say, "there are 2 kind of ppl in the world; hero & clown" he choose to be clown in his acting career which bring him to where he stand nw... i totally agree, if all ppl are hero then it is goin to sianz , therefore u need clown to lighten the world... we can normally everywhere there are a grp of friends together, in the grp of friends there comfirm got a clown which make them bond together...
my 'blood' bro really veri funny sia... after seeing my blog , then he say he actually didnt noe tat i keep something from him as we normally will share our problem, happy, sad etc together... then he call at night to ask wat problem i have and say tat i can find him if i need some1 to tok to... haha... always fan mi wat problem i have.. i really appreciate it.. but its okie.. for nw i still can handle.. but if the day come, i hope bro u dun come ask mi questions, let mi be alone for the few days, let mi slowly heal or take in the pain tat i suffur.. after tat then i can share... for now i told u everything but i only didnt tell u which matter is the i keep.. tat matter only u noe.. no1 else... so dun say i nvr update u anything... maybe for today stuff haven la.. but anyway my blog got say la... so u go slowly explore explore ba...wahaha....
OMG.,, nw is 2 am ,,, sh*t sh*t.. have to get 7.. left 5 hr sia.... going to be a tired day for 2molo... expo i going to see in less than 9 hr...haizzz :(
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